tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-54930434202302007852011-06-09T11:03:08.661-07:00Why am I here?GA Peachhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01460827115000605218noreply@blogger.comBlogger11100tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5493043420230200785.post-85856314015889782902011-06-09T11:02:00.000-07:002011-06-09T11:02:29.425-07:00Daily Struggles in my headSo I often wonder why I am even here. Today is one of those days. There were only a few things in life that I want and at 40 I have yet to reach any of them.<br />I feel like no matter how hard I work, how hard I try I can't get ahead. In addition I am lonely and tired of not having anyone to enjoy life with. Sometimes I wonder why God would let a child of cancer or something die and keep me here. WHAT IS MY PURPOSE??? I must have one!<br />I feel as if I have wasted so much life. I am ashamed of it also but have no idea how to find my way out!<br />Although I try so hard to be happy for friends who are blessed I also get angry. I don't like that. I think to myself, why can't I catch a break.<br />I haven't had a vacation in 10 years, I am lonely as hell, can't have a kid (which I have wanted since I was little), I struggle to pay my bills and I desperatly need a new car as mine is falling apart.<br />I am making almost $10K less than I was making at my previous job. My current employer verbally promised me that I would get back to what I was making but has continually screwed me!I am tired, don't want to keep going... I NEED to find my purpose.<br />Lord, please help me.<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/5493043420230200785-8585631401588978290?l=gapeachy.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>GA Peachhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01460827115000605218noreply@blogger.com0